1. brushing teeth in the dark, the war bunker
is in my heart.
2. they told me he was an orphan. i dreamt
i woke up next to him. no one told me that
love was a disease i could die from.
3. i saw my face in a photograph
and i didn't know if i was ugly
or not and i was scared that the
world would never understand
that my heart was beautiful and
wanted to be touched and wanted
to be understood and wanted to
live even if the world didn't want
my body-had spit out my body-had
told me i was unworthy of continuing
and it didn't matter how many men wanted
to lick my breasts or how many women wished
they had my confidence all that mattered was
that i had seen that picture and i had found it
ugly and for the rest of my life when i looked
in a mirror all i would see was that picture,
and sometimes, i'd have to brush my teeth
with the light off.
4. seventh grade girls need the entire world
to support their dreams. the entire universe
if they are fat and/or ugly.
5. if one has two empty beds in their home,
those beds should be filled with orphans.
6. the grass smells best in the fall.
the blood of children isn't so apparent
but the mums surely are.
7. if anyone could have told me at fifteen
that there was another suicidal woman
400 miles away who would end up being
a close friend of mine, and that we'd
laugh at how it all turned out: i would
still have been suicidal.
8. heartbreak is universal. so is
burnt toast. climb into the hole of
my heart and leak out through my
bleeding gums.
9. my mother called to ask me if
i hated her. i told her the opposite.
10. virgins are not so bad to have around.
11. dante's inferno is a video game for xbox.
12. chipmunk funeral lipstick palor
13. ray banned sticky noted gothic closet queer
14. i don't care what you have done. i care what
you are doing now. someone is dieing here, and
it is not you.
15. being catholic is not a disability. sometimes i
like to kneel and scream to God and watch
your crossed eyes burn.
16. crossed eyes are sexy. gapped teeth are god.
17. ugly is the new beautiful.
18. the lights are still off.
19. the war bunker is burning.
